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it will be difficult to forget. The light it spreads is so vast, just like a bright light that
sheds far and wide, giving you a wealth of knowledge instantly more than just the
word itself. The word given is like a wide river that breaks into other rivulets leading
you everywhere and in different places but always coming from the one river. Any
normal teaching in a school would have taken me months to learn. While I experience
the words so strongly, I am equally aware that the written form and the way I should
express the words still depends on my limited capacities of language and expression.
2. The second way I receive the words of God is through a light of understanding in my
intellect without any utterance of speech. It is like God transmits His thought into
mine. I would immediately know what God wants, or wishes to say. Then I have to
write down this “non-expressed message” as well as I could by selecting my own
words.
I have been told later here in Rome, that St. Bridget of Sweden had similar ways of writing
down her messages.
Why the Lord chose this special form of writing down the messages to which He even seizes
my hand? I really do not know. The Lord just told me when I asked him why: “Because I like
it in this way”. So I do not know how this happens. I would like to point out though that
theologians who are also expert graphologists and who have investigated the writings called
them “hieratic”, describing many groundbreaking differences between the way I write and
the so-called automatic writing. I have later come to know that known mystics such as
Theresa of Avila experienced raptures of her body or sometimes part of her body. I believe
this to be a mitigated form of rapture of my hand and trust that the Lord has his own
purposes in this.
Question 2. My relationship as Orthodox Christian to the Roman Catholic
Church.
You belong to the Orthodox Church and often exhort priests and bishops of that faith to
acknowledge the Pope and to make peace with the Roman Church. For this,
unfortunately, you are not welcome in some countries of your own persuasion. Why do
you take up this mission? What is your idea of the Bishop of Rome and how do you
foresee the future of Christian unity? One sometimes gets the impression in reading your
works, however, that you stand above both churches without being committed to either.
For example, it seems that you receive communion in both catholic and orthodox
churches, but in your marital status you follow the custom of oikonomia. As I have said
already, these observations are not meant as a personal censure as we have absolutely
no right to adjudicate your conscience, but you understand our concern about the
Catholic followers who may interpret these attitudes in a relativistic manner and are
tempted to disregard the disciplines of their own church.
Motivations for taking up this work of unity
I do not believe I would have ever had the courage or the zeal to face the Orthodoxy to bring
them to understand the reconciliation our Lord desires from them if I had not experienced
our Lord's presence, neither would I have endured the oppositions, the criticisms and the
persecutions being done on me by them. In the very beginning of God's intervention I was
totally confused and feared I was being deluded; this uncertainty was truly the biggest cross,
since I never heard in my life before that God can indeed express Himself to people in our
own times and had no one to ask about it. Because of this, I tried to fight it away, but the
experience would not leave and later on, slowly, with time, I became reassured and confident
that all of this was only God’s work, because I started to see God’s hand in it. This is why I